They call it a "Break-Up" because it's broken.

I read a book once with that title. Obviously, I had just ended a relationship at the time--otherwise that would be a very odd book to just sit down and read on a Sunday afternoon. I bring it up now, because I just ended another relationship. I'm already tired of ending relationships and I've only had 2.

We only dated for a couple of months, but that doesn't make it any easier to let go of it. It's like saying there is no more hope for us. I had hope...not anymore.

On a good note, I'm pretty proud of myself for saying what I needed to say and how I felt without worrying about what the other person would say or do. It didn't matter. What I said needed to be said. I only wish I had been strong enough to say it sooner. I wanted to give us a chance, but it turns out I was giving him so many chances I lost count.

He called me insecure...and I was--regarding our relationship. How else am I supposed to react when someone disappears in the middle of conversations, doesn't contact me when they say they will, and only gets in touch when it's convenient for them? So, I turned around and told him he was inconsiderate. Not so much name-calling, but close enough.

You know at the end of the relationship you're kinda torn...while you know it would be better and easier if you didn't hear from them...a small part of you still wants them to fight for the relationship to show that you actually meant something to them.

I don't care how busy you are, if someone is important to you, you make the time to stay in touch...even if it's just a text here and there, or a quick phone call. If you have time to go out to dinner with friends, check your facebook page and add friends, and go to a dance class on the weekends, then you absolutely have time to pursue our relationship.

Feeling sorry for me yet?

Yes, he was busy. But, that's a cop-out. If you're too busy for a relationship, then why'd you ask me out? You must have thought you had enough time to pursue some sort of relationship.

I want to call him names, sit down and cry, or run away...or all 3. Right now I choose to sit down and type...crying might come later.

You know what, though. I deserve better. And I have hope and I believe that someday soon God will bring someone along who I will have no doubt that he will be made for me. God is calling me back to Him, and how can I say no to someone who loves me with such an amazing, unfailing love. I simply cannot.

Thank you Jesus.:) Be my everything.