Feeling orange today. Also, feeling North Carolina.:) Not sure what to do with myself. Apparently, not thinking too clearly...can't get my thoughts together. Maybe I know what I wanna say, but I'm too afraid to say it. I wanna move to NC sooner than later. I want to sell or get rid of all my big furniture and move down there with just the stuff I can fit inside my car, "Frita." Frita take me away! I want to try living in a different place. Someplace slower, more southern, cheaper, and new. I want a new experience...a new adventure. There's nothing wrong with that, right?
Went to Boston last weekend and had the best time! Went to visit a friend, and ended up making a few more in the process. God is so cool like that. I've been wondering about myself--if there was something wrong with me that people don't like something about me, or that I'm not enough in some way. Wrong! I made instant friends in Boston, so there is nothing wrong with me. Maybe there is something a little off with CT people! Or we just don't "mesh" well. It makes sense, I'm on the quieter side, and people here are more reserved, so for me to try to be outgoing is totally against my nature, and that's the only way to get to know people. I can be outgoing, if people respond...having a hard time with people not responding. Hello!!! Thinking maybe people down south are a bit more friendly, and more likely to respond to invitations. At least to say a yes or no--there've been so many times people just haven't responded either way. Rude! Just one of the many reasons I'd like to move.
NC I am coming, just you wait.:)

So, getting ready to teach another class. Maybe I should say no sometimes. 2 in a day takes a lot of energy. Maybe it's just because it's Friday, I don't know. Headed to Boston right after to visit a good friend, so that'll be a great time.:) 1 more class...I can do it!

I thought I'd try this blogging thing since writing things down is very cathartic for me. I am starting to wonder if I have a problem with overly talkative people. For some reason, I tend not to trust them as much as other people. For some, when people talk and share with others, this causes them to open up and share, as well. But, not the case with me. I do like to listen to others tell me about their lives, don't get me wrong, but for whatever reason when people talk a lot about nothing I get annoyed. I guess I don't trust easily? I don't even know what I'm trying to say.

Talkative people tend to be drawn to me, too. Not sure what that's about. I guess they can talk and talk and they think I listen intently, which I attempt to do, but after awhile I like some quiet. People make me feel like there's something wrong with me when I don't share, and when I don't talk to them. There's nothing wrong with me, I just don't feel like talking all the time! There is a time to talk and a time to be quiet. I tend to like more of the latter.

Unfortunately, people who are talkative tend to try to control everything around them, and because I don't talk as much, they tend to get away with it. This is my fault and something I am working on, but it goes both ways. I'll try to speak up more, but you gotta shut up sometimes! I hate it when people expect you to change, but refuse to even think about changing themselves.

I guess on that note I'll shut up myself.

Peace.